goals · make a difference

that’s just not me

I have been toying with the idea of really, truly, once-and-for-all, starting my “business” of hosting women’s retreats.  I have been advised to narrow my focus and start a blog/website dedicated to the promotion and expansion of those retreats.  I have thought long and hard about WHAT my focus and my message would be.  I have gone back through my volumes of journals, notes, and blog posts, trying to settle on a key phrase or a focus that sums up what my message and my passion is.  Is it “Living a balanced life”?  “Finding happiness”?  “Being enough”?  “Loving yourself”?    The answer is a resounding YES to all of these!  And in a moment of clarity, this very evening, I realized that I don’t WANT to have a blog or a business that is just about one thing.  That’s just not me.  I am many things.  I LOVE a lot of things.  I love learning, and reading, and writing…. and I love writing about the things that I learn and read.  I am always looking for ideas and strategies for living a balanced life – a life that is enriched with faith AND family, health AND love.

Oh, and Disneyland.  I think I will always need “enrichment”, via Disneyland.  Maybe I’ll start a blog about that. 😉

I suppose I could write a blog that promotes living a balanced life.  Maybe?  But that is just so cliche!  Everyone and their dog has a blog about that.  And isn’t that what this blog IS, anyways?

As far as the retreats go, honestly, I would love to host all KINDS of retreats.  I would like for the retreat themes and workshops to be generally about finding balance, finding happiness, and learning to love one’s self.  These are the things that I have struggled with, and worked my way through, and these are the things that I want to help other women with.  But ANY type of a retreat can feed in to these general ideas!

Mostly, I just feel driven to get women together, so that we can share our stories, learn from each other, and be strengthened by one another.  Women need women.  We need to be reminded that we are not alone in our fears and our struggles.  We need to know that we are enough… That we are loved.

I have a dear friend, the talented Michelle Gifford, from Beauty Revived and Mormon Mompreneurs.  Michelle is an entrepreneur to the core.  She is driven and inspired, brilliant and inspiring.  And she is a business coach.  I asked her for a bit of advice last week.  I told her about my idea for hosting women’s retreats, and gave her a little insight into how I envision these retreats playing out.  I EVEN shared this blog with her.  And I have NEVER shared this blog with anyone.  Yikes!  It was Michelle that suggested I might consider starting a new blog and website, with a narrower focus.  She suggested that I could start moving relevant content from my current blog over to the new blog, open a corresponding Instagram account and Facebook page, and really start building an audience. From a business point of view, that makes so much sense.  My audience needs to understand what it is that I am offering, so that this idea can take shape and grow.  From a business point of view, this is probably exactly what I SHOULD do.

But again, and for now, that is just not me.  I often WISH I had more of an entrepreneurial spirit.  I wish I were more driven to grow and develop a thriving business.  But I am not.  I am so glad that I spoke with Michelle.  It forced me to really think about what I want.  It made me consider what my goals really are.  I feel calm.  I have a plan.

I will probably always write.  It is my therapy.  But the idea of writing for other people, say on a business related website, takes the fun out of it for me.  It’s too much pressure!  I write for me.  If others want to enjoy my writing, they are more than welcome to.  I just don’t want to be expected to write.  And I don’t want to be critiqued.  Haha.

Even without a website and a Facebook page, I feel like I can create a GREAT following of women for my retreats.  The venue (our lakeside cabin) is aMAZing.  I have SO many talented, smart, funny, fun, and inspiring friends.  I don’t need to make money off of this.  I have a very good idea of what does and does not work at retreats.  I know how to plan and host events.  And my drive to do this thing stems from my simple desire to connect with other women and learn from them.  No agenda.

There MAY come a day when I decide to expand this venture.  There may come a time when I decide to reach out to women outside of my already large circle of friends. (That was a mouthful!)  Maybe that day will be tomorrow.  But for today, I have a smaller, simpler path to follow.  And it’s time to get going.


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